I’ve written a little about my disappointment and frustration from the annual sessions of my Yearly Meeting.
Sometimes the Warrior feels as if he were living two lives at once. In one of them he is obliged to do all the things he does not want to do and to fight for ideas in which he does not believe. But there is another life, and he discovers it in his dreams, in his reading, and in his encounters with people who share his ideas. The Warrior allows his two lives to draw near. “There is a bridge that links what I do with what I would like to do,” he thinks. Slowly, his dreams take over his everyday life, and then he realizes that he is ready for the thing he always wanted. Then all that is needed is a little daring, and his two lives become one. Coelho, Paulo. Warrior of the Light: A Manual (p. 90). HarperCollins. Kindle Edition.
My initial reaction was trying to decide whether to leave what I do not want to do, to give up on trying to get people to stop using fossil fuel, to get out into diverse communities, to find how we can refuse to accept privilege based upon skin color, to work for peace. Forty years of failure to get a single person to give up their car.
The theme of our Yearly Meeting last year was “Building Bridges.” As a result of connections with two Native women at that time, there were numerous occasions where I was able to build bridges with Native Americans over the past year.
As a Warrior of the Light can I find a bridge for these other disconnects in my life now? Maybe it doesn’t have to be a binary choice of stay or go.
Do I have a little (more) daring?
Jeff! There are always frustrations at YM. You shouldn’t beat yourself up about how things turned out. The clerk is the servant of the meeting, not the leader. There isn’t really time to explain everything and folks in the business meetings are tired. I find the Adam Hochschild book “Bury the Chains” inspiring. About the British abolitionist movement and the different characters that came together for success and how everyone had to be in it for the long game. It isn’t personal.
Thanks, Bob. Actually Deb gave me a copy of that book.
It’s not a binary choice. i work at undoing dualistic thinking …. when I think something is a binary choice, I need to change my perspective and sink into the infinite creativity of which we are part. Stay faithful
Thanks. That is good advice.